Molly Crowe

I have a secret.

Most people know that I have always loved singing in the car. Erin Meimerstorf and I used to sing Crazy and I think I love you at the top of our lungs in my parents car to a mixed tape I had made when we were kids. I make playlists and CDs for my car now that generally revolve around how fun the songs are to sing. When I’m in my room, I’ll listen to music that is generally nice to listen to while I do other things, but when I’m in the car it’s like I’m on a stage. I rarely sing when people are in the car with me, unless they are singing too and the music is turned up very loudly, but when I’m alone it happens often.

I realized today that I would love to be a singer… but not just any type of singer…

I think I’d love to be a country singer. I don’t like country music, but I do like the way they sing. I think it is more fun to sing country songs than any other type. I probably mainly feel this way because I think the songs are funny, so they make me happy to sing. Country singers do fun things with their voice. Imagine how much fun LeAnn Rimes is having when she sings the word “blue” in her song, Blue. Probably tons.

After at least one post a day for a week, I feel like a slacker for not posting anything for two whole days in a row. I don’t really have that much to say right now, but I decided to update anyway.

The weekend was amazing. Jennifer, Jessica, and I had our housewarming party, which despite all the cleaning that is still left to do, was a huge success. I don’t think there will ever be that many people in our house again. Those OU Tulsa kids know how to party. Yesterday was my mom’s birthday, so I got to spend time with my family and eat lasagna and make brownies. It is a known fact that I hate baking, but I love making brownies for some reason. I think it’s because I grew up helping my mom, and we still use the exact same recipe we have always used. The page is falling out of a Joy of Cooking cookbook, and it has chocolate fingerprints all over it. My sister and I used to get in actual fights over licking the bowl, even though we always tried to share it. Yesterday after I finished making the brownies, I got to ask Toni if she wanted to lick the bowl with me. She was excited, and ran into the kitchen. I gave her a spoon, and she started to lick it, but she wasn’t getting very much chocolate off of it that way for some reason. She kept giving it back to me, and when I asked her if she was done she would say, “No,” in a tone that suggested I must be crazy. She just wanted more chocolate on the spoon, even though there was as sufficient amount already there. I taught her to use her finger to wipe it off the spoon, then to lick her finger. She liked that trick, and she ended up eating three spoonfuls of chocolate. It was so much fun sharing that moment with her.

The trip to Norman was good, except for Kingdom of Heaven. Now I am back in our lovely home, equipped with three new movies and a lot of new music courtesy of Justin Clark. After this week I will have watched Murderball,The Constant Gardener, and The Exorcism of Emily Rose. I’m most excited about Murderball. The subject is interesting to me, and that would have been enough for me to want to see it, but when Chap said that he cried I was hooked. I wonder if I’ll cry. I can’t remember the last time I cried during a movie.

The job hunt continues tomorrow. I have a few possibilities. Right now my favorite is a job at The Little Lighthouse. Hopefully that one works out. I’ll explain more about the job if they offer it to me. Until then I think the name of the facility is sufficient.

I’m having one of those moments where I feel like nothing I’m writing is worth reading… so I’m going to stop. I’ll update more when I have something more specific to say.

Tonight Jennifer made me feel like a mom.

After our American Idol festivities at Irvington Place Jennifer gave Autumn a ride home approximately one mile away from our house. Jennifer’s friend Kali is staying with us tonight, so they took Kali’s car and left. This was around 11:00 pm.

When they left I did a few things around the house. I went to Quik Trip, then I talked on the phone for a while with my door shut. I didn’t think much about the fact that the house was quiet, because I was busy talking on the phone. It wasn’t until I got off the phone at 12:30am and walked around my house that I realized Jennifer was still not home. I glanced around the house and saw that all of Kali’s spend-the-night things were still on the floor in our living room. I thought for a few minutes, and decided that they wouldn’t have spent the night at Autumn’s because they would need their things, and that would be silly. Jennifer is not the type of person to go out on the town at that time of night, especially when she has to wake up for school the next day, so I figured she wasn’t out partying or anything. She should have been home.

I would like to make it known here that I wouldn’t have worried at all or done anything to find Jennifer if I wasn’t completely convinced that by not being home she was being extremely unlike herself. I thought something was really wrong.

I called Jennifer twice and received no response. I also sent her a text message. I didn’t know Autumn’s number, or I would have called her. I called Kayla instead at 1:00 am even though I knew she would be sleeping. Approximately 15 minutes later, Kayla called me back and sounded very sleepy. I asked her if she knew where Jennifer was, and she didn’t. I told her I wanted to call Autumn but I didn’t have her number. Kayla said she would call Autumn and call me back. She never called me back.

After about 30 minutes I sent Kayla a text message. She never responded. I remembered that Maria lived in the apartment directly above Autumn, so I tried to contact her so she could go see if Jennifer was there, but she didn’t respond either. During this time I was talking to Evan online, and he was being sympathetic and helping me decide what I could do. He was being a good friend. I really didn’t have any ideas as to what might be wrong with them, I just thought it was strange that she wasn’t answering her phone. I thought she would hear it ring, even if she was sleeping somewhere else.

I got on Jennifer’s computer and tried to talk to BJ, because I figured Jennifer would have talked to him before he went to sleep. I figured she would have told him whether or not she was at Autumn’s. His away message said he was sleeping, and he never responded to me.

I thought about going to Autumn’s apartment complex, but I didn’t know her apartment number. I also didn’t know what Kali’s car looked like, so I couldn’t just drive around and look for it. I really didn’t see what more I could do. I felt helpless. I thought about waking up Jessica, but I knew there was nothing she could do, and that all she would do would be worry along with me. That didn’t seem like it would help anything.

I put this note on the bulletin board, and I decided I would try not to worry anymore and wind down for the night. This was at 2:30 am. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to sleep or not, but at that point I really didn’t know what else to do. I figured she would return at some point, and I just wanted to make sure she woke me up so I could stop worrying. At 2:41 am, my phone rang. It was Jennifer.

She and Kali had spent three hours talkign to Autumn, and she had left her phone in her car. After yelling at her for a few minutes, I was extremely relieved. I was happy that she was safe and coming back to Irvington. We laughed about it for a while when she got home, and I gave her and Kali both big hugs.

The end.

Tonight I watched the first of the three movies I have set out for this week. Murderball was absolutely incredible. I didn’t cry, but it definitely touched me. I think one of my favorite parts was when the team was talking to the Campfire kids. The kids were asking them questions, and one little boy asked one of the players, “How do you eat your pizza with your elbows?” The boy was very serious about the question, and he asked like he wanted to know just in case he ever lost his arms, because that would be the most important thing to him. I loved it.

It has come to my attention that people haven’t been noticing the picture tab at the top of my site. It’s there. Just look up. I just changed out the pictures, and I’ll try to keep them updated. Lately I have had a lot of fun taking pictures. It’s something I used to do all the time. I like taking pictures of people. Maybe someday I’ll try to get good at it, but for now I am just having fun. I could have put a lot of great pictures on here, but I wanted to keep the ones I post under that tab ones that come from my camera.